••Drag my car to the cities I never got to visit••

I'm just gonna die now.

2004-12-24T17:50:45Z

As of last night I am single. I tried to like, i dont know, "Let him down easy", but I dont think it worked. I think I came off as a bitch. At this point I dont even care. This whole living thing is over-rated. I dont know what to do anymore.

Thank you Sheena for the new wondeful Layout.

2004-12-23T05:45:57Z

Well, I feel emo again. I dont like this feeling.

Right now, it's hard enough to deal with my own fucked up feelings without having to deal with anyone else's! I am just so damn confused. I need to talk to someone who understands me and isnt part of all this shit. I dont even have anyone like that! I mean I could talk to Kristen and Nikki about anything or anyone, but right now I'm still trying to get my head around the fact that after Xmas Eve I wont be hanging out with Kristen till the summer or some shit like that and Nikki might be moving to New Hampshire. I'll have no one. Granted I have other great friends but it isnt the same, I didnt spend 99.9% of my life with them. My life is being torn apart at the seems. Everytime I walk into my house someone is fighting with someone else. My dad's bitchy because he feels like he is useless because of his back. He doesnt get that he's the only thing keeping mom in the house. My mom is bitchy because she thinks no one cares about anything and blah blah blah,"Mollie, I'm always fucking wrong when I talk to you!","Mollie, you know what I expect from you!","Mollie raise the bar!","Mollie use your head!". I wish she would just fucking shut-up for a minute and listen to me! My sister wishes she never moved here. Ray is fucking yelling at everyone and stomping around because he's pissed at mom. I just cant take this shit anymore.

I need to get away, far away.

fuckingfoley @ 2004-12-22T17:32:00

2004-12-22T22:32:13Z

You are a tortillia with the word "dude"
written on it in chocolate sauce. Hersheys.
But you knew that already. Ah, the dumb
things we do when we're drunk or high! You
have some kind of habit, some kind of safety,
that keeps you from revealing your true
feelings or heart to people. You're not bad or
angry. Everyone likes tortilias. Everyone
likes chocolate. But they just dont go
together. You have yet to find what you go
together yet.

The Whats In Your Kitchen Personality Test
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Baby, you make my heart beat faster.

2004-12-22T06:49:46Z

I dont know how I feel anymore. I am happy one minute and depressed then next. All this stress can do that to a person. My mother had a mental break-down yesterday and was bawling her eyes out and storming around the house. For those of you who dont know my mother, she never cries. I have seen her cry 4 times including yesterday. When my great aunt died, when my uncle was diagnosed with cancer and when the cancer got worse. But yesterday she cracked. I felt bad, she said that me and my sister hated her and she was always wrong no mater what she says and shit like that. Maybe we would like her and not think she was wrong all the time if she was a little more decent to us! All she does is bitch us out all the time! She expects me to get straight fucking A's in all honors classes, who the fuck does she think I am, Einstein?! Really now! But, what really rubbed me the wrong way was that she said the me and my sister didnt care that my uncle Steve is dying. I have gone up to see him a hundred times. He's 6'5 and only weighs 90 pounds because of the fucking chemo. Granted he always made me feel like a retard growing up, but now I am finally realizing that he does that to everyone because thats just his way of kidding around. I love him, he's my uncle. My sister cant even make herself go up there because she spent alot of her time growing up and his house with my cousins, it tears her apart. But sure, whatever we dont care. I just cant deal anymore. I want to get away, anywhere.

I was in the house till 4 today because mother dearest went out and my poor Dad threw out his back so I needed to stay home in case he needed anything. She came home and I took out the trash and called Nikki, she said everyone was down the Rec so I went down. Stockwell, Nikki, Roderick, Kristen and Booty were there. They were playing bloody knuckles. Shockwell and Roderick were pretty torn up but Kristen and Nikki werent that bad until Nikki complained that she wasnt bleeding and let people take free shots, bad idea, black and blue and bleeding, ugly. Booty left and we went inside the gym and sat on mats on the bleachers. Roderick played bball and Kristen Nikki, Stockwell, and I just sat there. Stockwell left. Then we went to GS because we're losers. Party, funny so on. We were walking home and Kristen said she had to wait for Roderick, me and Nikki kept going because Nikki's cooch hurt and I had to be home. Got home, Kristen and Roderick rang the doorbell. I called jew, we went outside. Sat on my porch for a while. Went to the side so smoke. Nikki left us and went on the hammock. Roderick saw it and wanted to go on. He kicked off Nikki and got on. He flipped off like 4 times. Him and kristen got on. Nikki went inside because she was cold and her cooch hurt (yes thats the reason she gave me.) We sat there. I went in and called Jew he said he was leaving soon. Asked mom if we could sit on the stairs. We did. Hung out there. Called Jew after like a half hour. He said that he was coming. My mom said I had 15 minutes. Jew came we sat there. My mom announced that I had to go in after he had been there 5 minutes. Kristen and Roderick proceeded to bager us until we kissed. Then Roderick was like,"Ohh, make out make out make out!" and I was like,"Maybe we will if you ever leave!" They wouldnt leave. I locked the dor so they couldnt get back in. Jew and I stood there with our arms around each othe and kisse a few times. He made a lame attempt to make out with me and licked my nose. He heard my grandmother coughing and was like,"Oh, its Grandma!" I laughed then, but looking back it wasnt really funny. He wouldnt leave, even though I told him that I was going to bein trouble. He finally left after my mother called me for the 6th time. I went upstairs and explained what happened to Nikki and we laughed. She left, then she ran back in and gave me my Xmas present which turned out to be these wondeful pants. They're black with a green stripe down the side and the good luck/green care bear on the front in the leg, then it says "feeling Lucky" on the ass with a shamrock. They're great. I am wearing them right now. I talked to Ochoa for the past 4 hours pretty much. He's a cool kid. But he went to take a shower and when he came back he was sad. He was talking to me and it started to wear off on me.

I told Mike 10 minutes before I started going out with him that I was confused and that I didnt want to break his heart. He said that I couldnt hurt him as much as he has already been hurt. I hope thats true. Hes the sweetest kid and he's cute and funny and stuff like that. Even with all the good qualities I am starting to wonder how long this will last. I mean, I like him, I do, but like I told him I like other people too, I even told him who I liked. He said he didnt care. But I think I do. I think I am going to cry.

fuckingfoley @ 2004-12-20T18:23:00

2004-12-20T23:31:54Z

Oh My God! I like life today! I go out with Jew! Well, I suppose I cant call him that now, but there is just too many Mikes at the moment so he's keeping Jew. I just got back from his house a little while ago. We watched TV for a while, then he turned it off and we sat in the dark and talked and tickled each other. XP. I got up and he laid down and was like,"Ha, now you cant sit down!" so I sat stradled on his lap and kissed his neck he was like,"Thank you." I laughed. I got off. I almost fell asleep because he was running behind my ear. We had fun..

Earlier my mom was being a dusche. Ray was gonna help her move the refrigerator thats in the cellar and couldnt because first he was trying to find my sister and me at the mall and he didnt find us so he came home but then it was too late and whatever. My mother was flipping out. My sister was crying. I hate when my mother does shit like that! MY sister is wicked sensitive and my mother always bitches at her and it makes her cry. Mother dearest is never seeing me again after I turn 18..ever. Oh vell. Life goes on.

I have to go wrap a present for Christine from work. Then I'm going to a x-mas party at work. Love ya!

fuckingfoley @ 2004-12-14T22:33:00

2004-12-15T03:41:53Z

I'm not sure which is worse. Knowing I feel this way about him or knowing I am too much of a coward to let him know. Its tearing me apart inside.

I got into a huge fight with my mother today. She still isnt speaking to me. I went up on 3 grades on my progress report, stayed the same on one and went down in one. I have a C+, two A- and 3 B's. I am very proud of myslef because I know I already brought up my C+ to a B- and one of my A- to and A. Mother dear doesnt believe me. Says I'm slacking. I hate her. I'm not playing around this time. I need to get out of here.

I cut my bangs shorter about and hour ago. They look good. I even put in streaks of black in the front. The black is already fading because it was perm marker(lol) but thats ok.

Tommorrow, I am going to have to do a report in front of my whole Global Sudies class with my group. It's a little known fact that I hate speaking in front of large groups of people. I even hate reading outloud in class. Eh.

I know I am going to see HIM too. Everytime I see him, I remember all the good and I want to cry. I am beginning to ate life.

fuckingfoley @ 2004-12-14T07:05:00

2004-12-14T12:06:24Z

I finally edited my whole MySpace thingy and put in details and stuffs. I'm terribly tired. Today was a normal Monday. Boring. My weekend was interesting though.

Friday: I stayed home sick from school, but still had to go to work because I need money. I wore my Santa hat to work, ohhh yeahh. I was sick and asked my boss if I could actually go home on time. He said I could. I went home and talked to people online and went to bed. Friday was boring.

Saturday: I knew I was supposed to be going over Christine's House for a party-thingy for Kristen, but I didnt know when or what was going on. By two no one had informed me of anything and Ally called and said she was with Zack so I went up there. Ally, Zack and I proceeded to walk around cemetaries for 3 hours. We were walking back to Ally's from the border of Revere down Elm Street. I took both their keys and put them around my neck. Zack called me the keeper of the keys I think. We got to the Revere/Everett line and Ally and Zack both decided that they wanted to stand in 2 cities at once so we stood there for a while then kept wlaking. Both Zack and Ally stepped in dog shit and I laughed at them..hard.. We had just crossed a street and I said,"I remember when I was little I saw some mafia show or something and some guy shot this other guy in the head and was like'Tell your friends'. I've always thought that was great." I proceeded to act out the whole scene then I stepped in dog shit. Ally fell to the ground laughing and was like,"Payback's a bitch!" I whined and complained for a while then got over myself. ZAck, Ally and I were hungry so we went in some store for food. When we got outside, I gave back the krys. I put Zack's back around his neck and he dropped the cupcake he was eating. He was like,"NOOOOOO!!!!" and mourned over it. I gave him a dollar to go get more cupcakes while me and Ally pissed ourselves laughing. Ally pointed out that he acted like the cupcake was a baby and we all laughed. Then we saw this random scray guy that Ally knows and got cigarettes. Went to Glandale Park to smoke them. Went back to Ally's. Sat there for a while. Told Ally's mom a penis joke. Called my mom. She told me to come home. Went home. Lost all hope that I would get in touch with anyone. Started to watch Calendar Girls with my mom. Just as it started Kristen called and asked where the hell I was and told me to get my ass to christines. I did. Stockwell, Roderick, Melinda, Christine, Kristen, Cassie and Nikki were all there. We watched Final Destination 2 and went for a walk. All the girls sang,"I feel like humping something" ALL NIGHT! We went outside. Everyone was spinning around and sliding on the wet street and screaming. Neighbors were looking out windows and stuff. We went for a walk arounf the block. At 10:30 Stockwell and Roderick went to leave. Then Cindy, Joe, Nicole, and Steph pulled up and were all laughing and shit. Nicole and Steph used to be friends with Christine and Melinda but decided they were too "edge" for them or something and wouldnt say hi. Christine and Melinda were crying. I was confused. Eh. Christines Dad drove Us all to drop off Stockwell and Roderick. It was amusing, but I don remember what happened. We got back. Roderick called and wanted o come back over. Kristen, Cassie and I walked to go get him. Wandered back to christines house. Walked him halfway home again. Christine and MElinda were still crying. We tried to make them feel better and the went somewhere. Cindy and Nicole threw bottles of nailpolish at each other. I wrote"Mollie got a piece of this!" on the ass of Kristen's pants. We went downstairs. Christine and Melinda were fine again. Then Christine and Kristen got into a fight and Cassie and I were beating each other in a funny way. Melinda and Christine fell asleep at 5. At 6:30 Cindy came down and duck-taped Nikki, Kristen and My mouth's shut. Then sat at the table and talked to herself cracking nuts. I fell asleep and woke up at nine.

Sunday:We watched TV. Cindy blindfolded Nikki and temp dyed her hair blue! It was wicked funny. I went home. My mom made me go food shopping on the way home. Then she wouldnt let me go out. We kept fighting so I took a shower and went to bed at six. I was lying on the end of my bed talking to Jew online. He asked if I wanted to go out. I responded that I couldnt I was going to bed and we both laughed. I said,"Night Love you." like I say to everyone and he got confused and thought I meant that I really loved him.. I felt bad. I fell asleep at seven. I felt like a loser lol.

Thats about it. Now I have to do my homework then I am off to bed.

Buono Notte.

Oh my fucking god!

2004-12-05T04:26:12Z

OH MY FUCKING GOD!!! MY SISTER IS PREGANT AGAIN!!! WOOOP!!

My sister is having another baby! My sister is having another baby! My sister is having another baby! My sister is having another baby!

I love my nephew but I want a neice! Then again if she has a boy she'll have the clothes and blue stuff and she wont have to spend the money she doesnt have... Oh vell. Baby, baby, baby!!!

Now, that I've said that..

I've been thinking. I am confused. I dont know how I feel anymore. Like, I'm being torn apart. I know deep down I like Matt, but I also know that I wont be able to really see him for another 3 months. I also have two other minor crushes.. Who they are is way beside the point.. I dont know.. Do I wait for Matt to be off grounding? What if he doesnt like me anymore? What if he does and I end up going out with someone else? What if I go out with someone else and he finds out I still like him? I dont fucking know!! It would be so much easier if he read this without anyone telling him too and he found out that way.. Then again if he read this he'll probably think I'm some creepy stalker child. Eh!! How much am I going to change in the next 3 months? I mean three months ago I didnt know Christine, Melinda, Roderick, Priscilla, Stockwell, Cindy, Kevin, a hella bunch of people in school and a bunch more people, they must have affected what I act like. Who will I meet in the next three months? Who will I be? What if I am way different and Matt doesnt like the new-mollie? Argh!! I fucking hate questions.

Today I went to the mall. I was supposed to hang out with Ward but he never showed, then when Nikki, Kristen and I went down to the skatepark to collect Stockwell with Cindy and then to the Rink to collect Roderick, I saw him outside smoking. I was like,"Thanks for stopping by fucker." And he was like"Your mom was outside and I thought she didnt like me so I just kept walking.." Whatever. We all (Cindy, Melinda, Kristen, Roderick, Stockwell, Nikki and I) loaded back into Cindys van and Demico(spelling?) and Ward got into Demico's car. Went to the mall.. Kinda of uneventful and Boring. Went to Newbury Comics where Roderick bought a pot flavored lolli-pop which everyone tasted and voted that it tasted like oregano. Whatever.. Went back to Christines. Watched Thirteen, The Crow and Euro Trip. The Crow is the greatest movie ever! I loved it! Roderick got Kristen in a bad mood again. Annoyance. I cant believe she's moving in 2 weeks. :(

She tapes herself back together.

survey? why not..

2004-11-24T03:07:04Z

Current mood: shitty
Current music: cars going by
Current taste: orange juice
Current hair: wet and down
Current clothes: greenday shirt and mickey mouse shorts
Current annoyance: myself
Current smell: soap
Current thing I ought to be doing: sleeping
Current windows open: this, buddy list and away message
Current desktop picture: greenday with lyrics from a bunch of diff songs by them..
Current favorite band: greenday
Current CD in stereo: Rock against Bush volume 2
Current crush: matt.. weee...
Current favorite celeb: billy joe armstrong
Current hate: myself.

=Do I=
Do drugs?: no
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: no
Remember your first love?: yes
Still love him?: no
Read the newspaper?: not the whole thing
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: yes
Believe in miracles?: yes
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: no
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: no
Consider love a mistake?: no
Like the taste of alcohol?: yes
Believe in astrology?: yes
Believe in magic?: yes
Believe in God?: yes but I have a fucked up theory. when your bored ask me about it..
Have any pets?: no
Go to or plan to go to college: yes
Have any piercings?: just my ears. :(
Have any tattoos?: no, but soon
Hate yourself: not really hate just severely dislike at the moment.. not usually
Have an obsession?: not really
Have a secret crush?: kinda
Do they know yet?: hope not.
Wish on stars?: yes
Care about looks?: not really.

=Love life=
First crush: preschool
Single or attached?: single
Ever been in love?: yes
Do you believe in love at first sight?: no
Do you believe in "the one?": kinda

=Juicy stuff=
Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing?: yes
Have you ever been intoxicated?: yes
Have you ever been caught "doing something?": no
Are you a tease?: so I have been told, i dont see how though
Shy to make the first move?: a little

--APPEARANCE:--
Hair: blondish-redish-brown
Eyes: blue gray
Height: 5'9

--LAST THING YOU:--
Bought: mountain dew
Ate & Drank: peppermint ice cream
Watched on tv: cant remember, probably the news..

--EITHER / OR:--
club or houseparty: house party
drinks or shots: drinks
cats or dogs: cats
pen or pencil: pen
gloves or mittens: gloves
food or candy: candy
cassette or cd: cd
coke or pepsi: coke
this or that: that.

--LAST PERSON YOU--
talked to: Nikki
hugged: Mishelle
instant messaged: dont remember
kissed: kristen (on the cheek, lol)

--HAVE YOU EVER...--
Dated one of your best friends? yes
Loved somebody so much it made you cry?: yes
Broken the law? yes
Run away from home? yes
Broken a bone? no
Played Truth Or Dare? yes
Kissed someone you didn't know?: no
Been in a fight? yes
Come close to dying?: yes

--WHAT IS--
The most embarrassing CD in your collection?: idk..
Your bedroom like?: tiny, written on white walls, cluttered, interesting, good smelling
Your favorite thing for breakfast?: idk, pancakes?
Your favorite restaurant?: tiki island

hmm..

2004-11-22T22:26:27Z

Last time I tried to update it died and I was too lazy to start again. Not too too much happened. Went out a couple times, made a cake, smoked, babysat, boring..

Matt's grounded for 3 months. :( Poor Matt.

Mike told people he thought I was still madly in love with him, then he told other people I was leading him on... I think he's a little confused. I am neither leading him on nor am I madly in love with him, but whatever..

I should be cleaning my room or doing my homework right now but whatever..

I feel sick. Blah. I kept falling today. In gym we had to run stairs(I know right, what the fuck?) Anyway, I ran the stairs then fell at the top. It hurt. Mr.Peevey added the time I was on the floor in pain to my score. Stupid fucking leprecaun. *glare* We watched a movie in Italian class, we're going to watch it again tommorrow. It's ok. Math was fun today. Mr.Ball wasnt in. We got to talk but we got a shitload of work.
Derek was like,"Omg Mollie it is sooo obvious that Mike loves you!"
Me-"How so?"
Derek- *imitates Mike's voice* "Signor Daily, can I go sit with Mollie to watch the romantic italian movie with subtitles???"
It was the funniest fucking thing! I heart Derek!

We had to look at human cells today in Bio class and draw them. Fun fun fun..

Thats about all I can think of right now..

Leave me come pretty comments..

She runs with scissors.

mhmm..

2004-11-14T04:48:26Z

I started my day at 10 or something. I had to shovel. Not even half-way through November and I had to shovel. Jesus. When I was shoveling I saw Ally and Kristen. They came over and watched me shovel while they waited for Rodrick. When Rodrick finnally showed up he made a few feeble attempts to hit me with snowballs. His aim sucks. When he finally hit me (on his 30th try) He hit my arm. I pelted him with a few. The surprise on his face was funny. He musnt have know that rob, corey and jimmy(until he moved) had snowball fights all the time when we were little. My aim has gotten a little better lol. Rodrick and Kristen went do to Dunkin Doughnuts because Rodrick wanted to smoke but thought it was "disrespectful" to do so in front of my house. Ally was nice and stayed with me. She helped me shovel because my wrist killed/kills. I think I sprained it. :(

While I finished shoveling, Ally went up to her house to call Matt and Jew to ask if they wanted to go to the movies with us. I dont know why she didnt just use my phone but anysway, they did. I went in to take a shower and get ready. Ally called, told me that instead of just us four there waqs going to be ten people. There ended up being 7 of us. (Matt, Christine, Melinda, Ally, Rodrick, Kristen and Me) We wandered from Dunkin Doughnuts (i got coffee yumm) to Allys a couple times then Christine's mother picked us up to go to the movies. She had to but us the tickets and there was a whole drama that she had to go to the movie with us and shit. Eventually we got everything figured out though. We saw the Seed of Chuckie. It was THE WORST movie I have ever seen! No plot line at all, nothing. Christina Tilly and Red Man played themselves. Only Red Man- rapper/actor played Red Man- rapper/director. Soo much better. After that we sat in the arcade for a while. Kristen was being emo about leaving Rodrick. She feels bad for him because she's leaving him. On our way out I saw Cynthia. We said hi. I left. We all went to Christine's for a little while. Her from is bright green, so cool. We left, went to Rodricks so he could get socks, went to my house to check in, then christines mother dropped us off at Glendale. At glendale we met up with a bunch of people that everyone but me knew from the skatepark. Matt, Frenchie and Burge went to Frenchie's to get a cardboard box to sled with. Me and Kristen both started to cry because she's leaving. I still can't believe it. Anysway. Then a group of us went to Walgreens. I wanted chocolate. I got some, gave some to Rodrick then got a lighter. We went outside and people were trying to get strangers to buy cigarettes for them. No one would. They wanted me to ask because I "look the oldest". Whatever. I asked once or twice maybe then left with Kristen. When we got back to Glendale, Matt, Frenchie and Burge were sledding with trash bags. *shakes head* Ally, Kristen and I left. Ally came over. She stayed for an hour or so. We looked at pic and listened to music. It was pretty boring. Just as she was about to leave Matt called. He was outside. She left. I talked to him for a while in my hallway. He kept putting his hands on my face because they were cold. It wasn't nice. He left. I went upstairs, put off updating this for a while, ate a taco, took a shower, watched TV. Now I am sitting on bed with the keyboard on my foot typing this. I am going to bed. Night all!

PS- I am confused. Why can't people be more open with their feelings? Especially certain people who are very hard to read. Argh! Maybe if I wasnt "shy" I would approach them and ask. (hehe it's fun referring to myself as shy) I don't know. I just don't want to sound stupid... I think it's too late.. lol...

Heart Broken..

2004-11-13T06:37:37Z

Kristen is moving by December 15th. This isn't fucking fair. It's not fucking fair at all.

I've found myself thinking alot about Mike lately. Not like,"Oh I wish I didnt break up with him" Because that's not true. If I didnt then I would have or he would have by now anyway, too much fighting. It's just.. I dont know what it is.. I've just been thinking about him.

Also been thinking about someone else. And this time it's because I like him. I just dont know what to do about it. I fucked up things between us pretty bad before. I don't know how he feels. There is no way to tell what he's thinking. What a confusing little but he is. I love it..

Another Wonderful Day.

2004-11-12T21:45:25Z

I woke up early and cleaned for a couple hours. I got bitched out by my mother. She said my sister was working harder then me and that wasn't right because she doesnt live here anymore. Oh well. Tommorrow I am just going to have to work again.

Nikki called me and said she was going to come to Everett. I got ready. She came over. We called Matt to get her cell back. He didn't pick up. He called back 2 minutes later and asked if we called. I said yes, nikkie said she wanted her phone back. He said if she wanted it that bad she could walk down to Jew's to get it. She was like, no bring it up here. He said no, she said no.. Back and forth like that for a while. Finally, I asked why we couldn't just go down, nikki was like, ga shutup. Then Matt said if we went down he would give us Newports. We got ready pretty fast. Just as we were about to leave, the doorbell rang. It was Matt. We went to the store to get my mother and grandmother milk and me a lighter. Went back to my house then went back out. Walked down to the rat trails. It was starting to get dark. We saw 3 people walking towards us. Matt stopped and was like, do you guys wanna cut into the cemetary. Me and Nikki were like, No you scared? So he sat down, then nikki and I did. The people turned out to be Rob, Colin and some other kid. Rob was like, Mollie smokes? and I was like so? He was like, as long as you dont smoke weed with them and nikki was like too late. Even though I dont but whatever. They kept walking. We got up and walked to the first bridge. We sat there for a while. Then Matt noticed these tall reed things. He pick one and held it like a staff and yelled I am jesus. Me, being the bright person I am, tell him to light the end like a torch, figuring he'd do one and we'd keep walking. He thought having the torch was fun and nikki and him start lighting more. I notice that the light from the fire is really bright because it's dark out. I tell them that someone is going to see it and call the cops. I keep walking away and coming back. Ten Minutes Later, 1o, TEN MINUTES LATER, the cops pull into the Jewish cemetary and down to the bridge with the sierens going. I was like, FUCK. And we ran. They got out of the car and chased us with flashlights. We get all the way back to the big opening that goes into holy cross and Matt lights another fire and stamps it out. We ran into the Holy Cross and start walking. We hear them yelling and see the flashlights. We start to run again. After a while the voices stopped and we started to walk like normal again. It was pretty funny. We walked around for a while then went into the other side of the cemetary. Went ot the Kinky Bench. Matt kept lighting things on fire. Nikki was hungry, we went to McDonalds. We left after 10 minutes. Headed towards Safe Sex park. Matt and I got into a heated debate about gay people. He thinks that if your gay you get aids quicker then you do if your straight or something to the affect. I disaggreed. They took the swings down at tire swing. It made me sad. I sat on those stupid little swingy-bar-thingys. Matt kept trying top light me on fire. Then he was trying to make me throw up. Gah. We walked over to CVS and sang commercial jingles on the way. He left, nikki got starbursts and stole some make-up. We went home. When we were almost to my house, Ally and Kristen pull up. Kristen got out. She asked if she could come over to get all the shit she left at my house. I said sure. Just as she was leaving my parents came home. they brought munchkins, yum. Nikki and I ate then kristen called and asked if I still had till 8. I said yes. Nikki and I went over to Kristens to sit outside. Christine, Rodrick, Priscilla, Richie? (The Man), and Stcokwell all came too. We were sitting on her porch and everyone but Christine and I lit up. Rodrick's lighter is cray and the flame is like a foot high and Kristen forgot and she tried to light her cig with it and almost burnt off her eyebrows! It was SOOOO fucking Funny!! She smelled like burnt popcorn the rest of the night. hehehe. We got kicked off her porch by her Grandfather because of all the cigs and lighters. He's just paranoid because they had a fire in her house at 5 o'clock in the morning today. We played "the quiet game" gone violent. If you talked you got slapped. Eventually instead of slapping they would just throw ice at you. Priscilla got hit with more ice... Lol. Richie?(I cant believe I cant remember his name!) gave out condoms and lube!! I got mango lube and a condom!! LOL! I though it was great. I put them in my bra because my mom has taken to asking me what's in my pockets lately. ›.› I was lying down with my head on Nikki's knees and Rodrick thought it would be funny to FUCKING DANCE ON MY BOOBS!!!! ARGH! That fucking hurt. I was lying down threatening him, not even up yet and he ran. It was funny. Stupid 12 year old. (I'm just playing I heart you Rodrick.) I hit him in th balls. We were even, lol. He left. Me and Nikki went in. She wrote like a page and a half worth of stuff on the door way thingy into my closet. It's great. Then she went home. Right now I am going to go to bed! Night!

New Journal.

2004-11-11T03:45:41Z

I got my Beautious Username from Lauren and Jill! Weee!

Today was a tremendous amount of fun. I woke up at 7:21 and told my Dad that if I went to school late that I would get a weeks worth of detention and detentions go on your permanent record and I would loose my scholarship. He let me go back to bed. Actually got up around 10. Watched my newphew for a little while. He pissed everywhere. Yeah, that sucked pretty bad. But then Nikki and Matt showed up and came in. Matt left. Nikki and I went out and were on our way down the street and my mother came out on the porch and called me back and gave me $20. She likes me again. Wee. Then Nikki and I went to Dunkin Doughnuts to wait for Ally and Nikki had to pee so while she was in the bathroom I was waiting outside and I saw FERN and I ran accross the street to talk to her and she gave me a drag of her cig. Nikki walked over. Then her mom pulled up and she was like,"oh shit, someone take this" and Nikki was like "I'LL TAKE IT!!" and it was funny and Fern took off to her mom's car. Ally showed up. We ran over to her. We were on our way to Burger King and we saw Matt. He was on his way to Jew's so we let him go after smelling him a couple times. He smelled really good. We got to BK and I was like,"Fuck no, no free pickles!" because of some fun joke thing because we got kicked out of BK before and shit.. Yeah, at any rate we went to McDonalds instead and then we called Matt and he said he was on his way down so we met up with him at the entrance to HOLY CROSS and Nikki tripped over air, fell and killed her head. After checking to make sure she was alive and pretty much ok I kept walking. I was alone and I saw a black thing and white thing on opposite sides of the little road thingy from each other. I starred at them for a while and turned away and when I looked back the black thing was behind a tree and when I turned back again it leaned out from behind the tree and looked over at me. It was really creepy. I was close enough to see it wasn't a human. Anysway. I went back over and Nikki and Ally were on the ground laughing and Matt was standing over them laughing. I missed something. Then we walked around. Nikki and Ally kept telling Matt to flash them his dick. He was like,"Get me hard first." They tried so damn hard but they're no good at it, he said. Nikki and him were like on the ground playing around having dry sex with him and when they got up he was like best I've ever had and she was like eh it was ok and he was like well, YOU SUCKED!!! It was so immensly funny it's now on my wall. The Nikki and Ally got completely freaked out and we went to leave. But we neared where I saw the shapes and it was really dark, I told them what I saw before and we refused to go through there so we left the long way. Matt and I were walking like 10 feet behind them and we ran and scared them. Nikki ran all the way to the enrance. It was funny. I stepped on a dead squirrel on the way to the entrance to the rat trails then nikki stepped on it. Pretty gross. Nikki did the Grudge re-enactment when we got to the rat trails. Since it was the second time it didnt really scare me. Then we saw this weird shadow that wasn't there when we walked in. Matt pointed it out. Nikki and I ran. Ally was already on the street. We kept walking. Nothing really happened on the way to Ally's. When Ally left we sat outside my house for a while. Matt started telling us a story about when he was little and him shitting himself or something. I almost threw up. It was so bad. I walked away. We went into my backyard. Had a crazy orgy on the hammock. lol. Not quite but Matt and I were tangles around Nikki for warmth and it was funny. Matt kept doing his evil clown laugh and face. It freaks me out so bad. I like couldn't breathe. It was bad. Then we went inside because I was frozen. We all read notes. Had fun. Matt almost died choking on whipped cream. He had me against the wall and he was mimicking sex faces and I fell to the ground laughing. He's so damn funny. He left. Nikki was going to sleep over but she was tired so she went home and is going to come over in the morning. So here I am updating.

I am finally pleased with my life. :) :) :)

(I ended up with a 4.0 GPA for the first quarter and my Dad talked to all the teachers and they were like,"She's very smart. She works very hard. She participates very well in class. ECT." So he was very happy and he told my mother and she was very happy. Now they're both off my back!)

Today I missed school, Tomorrows is Veterans Day so no school, Friday we have off because we sold all the raffle thingys, then saturday and sunday! 5 day weekend bitches!